boyfriends dad sent my mum an email telling her how he needs £200 amonth for me living here and lots of other stuff and now it’s really fucking akward to do anything

i don’t want to eat his food or anything because i don’t want to be questioned, last time i was cooking for me AND taddy, we got told not to have more than one hot meal a day

thing is I’m pregnant and starving, so fucking starving, i could cry, that’s how hungry i am, and I could go to the shops and get myself something but I’m really ill and I have no key to get back in and I like avoiding all akward situations, even if I order a pizza I will get questioned as to why I’m ordering it.

am i the only person who avoids akward situations at all costs? im so ‘frightened’ (not the right word but can’t describe what i mean) of unplanned conversations or conversations about things like food cause it’s such a sensitive topic. 

i don’t know what to fucking do I wish food wasn’t such a problem